I have a question. Please take it serious and don't laugh at me, because I do not know where I can ask and I really please you to give me some serious opinion. I am married and I really try to be a good muslim woman. But sometimes it is very hard for me to accept what my husband says to me. He is very nice and gentle, but I sadly tend to be contrary and I don't like it, when somebody told me what to do, although the person is in right. My husband is often mad at me for disobeying him and always be a bit to disrespectfull ( my temper is often very high and my tongue is to fast). But thats it. He admonish me and I pray a lot and I try to improve my behaviour, but it is hard for me. I fear that my husband, who is very patient with me, one day lose his patient with me and ask for a divorce.
So I was searching a lot in the Internet to get some tipps (because I do not want it like that anymore, I really want more harmony in my marriage, and my husband isn't the problem, it is me an my dislike to be "obedience"). I found that some people do something in their marriage that is called domestic discipline (you cann google it if you want). Mostly that are womans who asked their husbands to take charge of them and to hold them accountable for dislike actions (like being disrespectfull). It means that they get disciplined by their husbands (with a spanking on her bottoms with hand or with a cane). It is not about hitting or abuse or something like that. And they wrote, that this improved their marriage and helps themself to be a better wife tc.
I know, that it is allowed that a man can punish (not beating or hitting) his wife at last method. But what does it means exactly? Can a husband (who is gentle and loving to his wife (I don't mean any brutal things and no harming etc.please understand it right)) after admonishing her, discipline her? I want to ask my husband if he would do so, I guess it can help, but I do not want that he became a worser muslim (because I read, that the best man is the man who is the best to his wife). My husband is very, very nice to me (I guess sometimes to nice), but I am not always so nice. So when I ask him myself to be more serious to me and to stop and discipline me, when my temper is going mad, he is doing something good and not against Islam, or? He would help me and our marriage, because he would stop me, before I will get angry and nasty and he would help me to be more obendient to him. So he would still be the "best man to his wife"? I really guess, more discipline would help me, but I do not want him to be a worser husband ahead of Allah (but Allah had allowed it to a man to discipline a wife).
Ok, its maybe a bit confuse, but I hope, you understand what I mean and can give me some opinion (and to be clear, I am not talking about hitting or beating or something like that).